New feelings in Madurai

This picture is from when I was in the sky coming to India it was a long trip but I’m glad I was on that plane.

See before I came here I never left my house never went to public places, I was always home reading or watching anime(Japanese cartoons) anyway I didn’t like meeting new people and I didn’t like talking. I still kinda don’t but I wanted to make a difference in my life and I saw this trip as the best opportunity. I thought I could get through this without talking about my problems or showing my fears but I was wrong. The past few days my eyes have been open even wider to alot of things. Like the past two days some of my fears have shown and I was embarrassed and still kinda am. I didn’t want to talk about it and I still kind of don’t. The other day I had a talk with one of the staff members (Eli) and he said somethings that really had me thinking. Could I really get through this whole trip without letting any of my fears slip, without talking about my problems? He had a point even though I dont like talking about my problems I know I have to try. Also, while I have been here I have learned to appreciate what I have at home more. Being here has helped me to think about how I want to spend my future helping people as much as I can. I want to try to help get rid of poverty and also help with health care. Being in a different environment has in some weird form made me feel wiser in a way. I say this because like I said before my eyes have been opened even wider and I am aware of stuff that doesn’t really happen where I’m from.  I would like to travel more and see other unexpected things that I am not use to seeing.